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[23 Sep 2008|08:06am] |
Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal.
01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
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| here's to life |
[26 May 2008|08:12am] |
So...I know, I never update. haha
I don't really know where I left off. But I'll begin at last summer and try to be concise. Last summer, I was living with my parents, and they were making plans for me and I was unhappy with the whole situation. They had a 4-year pan-am plan laid out for me and honestly, I could have cared less. I know that I could never meet my parents expectations and gave up on it. I decided I wanted to live with my boyfriend without really thinking it over. Before I knew it, he was in el valle and we had nowhere to go. We slept in the car a lot, with a few kind hosts taking us in occasionally [(that includes you amanda :) ] Vinny (my boyfriend) was acting odd in his anxieties, and not at all like himself. There was a lot still questionable about our relationship, but it was certain that both of us were in love with eachother. We'd met about 3 years previous, but dating was a fairly new idea.
After having nowhere else to go, we left for california, to the boyfriend's mom's house. I was appalled at the atmosphere and overall feel of california. I hated it and I'd be happy to never go back. I grew up a lot in california. I learned how to leave people behind that didn't deserve my time. I saw snow falling like I'd never seen before. I slept on hard earth in a tent. I watched otters play in the water of the pacific ocean. I was even approached by a coyote and survived to tell the tale. While in cali, I passed a kidney stone, went to the ER, and had my first ever dose of morphine. It was wonderful haha, but at that point, I needed it. In September, I couldn't get rid of a strep infection and ended up wanting to just go home. I left in October, not knowing where my relationship with Vinny or my health stood.
I'll never forget my family's smiling faces when I got off the plane and ran down the escalator into their arms. I pushed people out of my way to get to them. I'd never missed them more. Through sickness and hardship, I was so appreciative to have a family to come home to.
Vinny came a few weeks later, and was back to himself completely. I was really relieved to realize that the person I fell in love with was back with me and much stronger than he'd ever been. I, however, had strengthened as well and resolved to never take shit from anyone again. Everyone could see it, I think. It's been hard here in San Antonio making rent and paying bills. There never seems to be enough money, but we've made it. We're moving back to the valley, into ghetto apartments that my mom owns to save money, so that we can hopefully move up to austin in a year or so. It'll be nice to see my family more, even if the valley is extremely dull.
The past few weeks have been like a dream. I've had some of the best days in my life and I can only hope there will be plenty of days like these in my future. Have you ever had the feeling that you're finally in the right situation? It took me a long time, but that's where I'm at. One of the best days I've mentioned included going to the park, swinging, only to have it come unhooked and throw me off, earning me a scratched up ass and a sore stomach from laughing. I expected to hear other people laughing, but all was silent around me, which made me laugh even harder.
I am so grateful that I'm able to appreciate what I have now to the full extent because of how hard things have been in the past. I've learned that even if I do regret a decision, sometimes a series of mistakes make something worth it. I want my life to stay this way.
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| I'm standing up |
[03 Dec 2007|03:16pm] |
Recently, I've learned so much.
It must be something about independence that catalyzes the process.
People have a lot of the same problems and I'm beginning to see that. I've realized that I can't always be in control of everything, that sometimes things screw up and it's NOT my fault.
I refuse to ever change myself for anyone unless I permit it. I refuse to make decisions based on anything other than my own reasoning or lack thereof.
I make this statement hoping that I will follow through, knowing that I'm a person to keep her word.
How's everyone else doing?
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[13 Jan 2006|12:27pm] |
As of about 5-7 minutes ago, I have graduated high school! Well...I still have some library fines and books out, but none of that matters right now! When I got home, I felt a true rush of freedom run through me, like a ghost or something. :) I never thought any of the bullshit anyone said about that would happen to me. I'll miss all you guys, but most of you DO have my number and if you don't, comment and I'll tell you it. To all my friends of the high school kind, thank you for being my partners in crime through the hell I've had to endure for the past 3 and 1/2 years. I know we'll always keep in touch, ;) but I know things will never be like they were in high school EVER again. I think I'm okay with that right now, but we did have some good times. :) :) :) I'll wait for you guys until you too escape the prison. I love you guys and may the good times keep on. It's been hard, but I did it! TOLPIS! HOORAH! AND ONCE AROUND THE CORNER AND WOOP THERE IT GOES. (sorry that was a BAD example) LOVE YA GUYS.
Free at last! Free at last! God allmighty, I am free at last!
Update: tonight is hxc time? as catherine would say? hahahaha silly boozer :) Missed you and Amanda at school.
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[01 Jan 2006|01:41am] |
hey guys guess what? It's 2006! GRADUATION TIMEEEEEEE!!!!! Only like 10 more days!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy new years everyone.
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| Someone replied to my last post with this. |
[30 Dec 2005|10:57pm] |
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There will be a memorial service on Jan. 7, 2006 at the Church of the Good Shepard at 11:00 a.m. I'm sure his parents would love all his friends to attend. (Church of the Good Shepard is located in McAllen on McColl Rd. between Pecan and La Vista) Please pass the word. Thanks!
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| Charles Garcia |
[29 Dec 2005|02:12pm] |
I heard that Charles died. I talked to Al all last night for like 6 hours and he told me that Charles had gotten brain damage and wasn't talking anymore, so he gave me a link to his blog and I cried my eyes out. Charles should be remembered for what he was: a sweet, unselfish, funny, and sincere person. Up until the end, he was smiling. That was the only way I recognized him in his pictures. 17 year olds are not supposed to look like that. No one should have to look like that. I hadn't said a prayer in a very long time until last night. All I said was that if he had to go that he is welcomed into whatever is after life and that he is warm and happy and back to how I remember him.
Get this...I saw him at prom last year and I walked up to him and said "Hey Charles! How are you doing man? Are you feeling good?" and he said to me "I'm FINE! I'm feeling fine! How are YOU doing?"
I really feel guilty for not being able to talk to him in the end. I just didn't know what to say to him. What do you say to a person at that stage in their life? I felt he was above me or past me or something and that all I could say would be stupid and cliche and already said.
All my love goes to Charles family. I know how hard it is to lose someone, especially to cancer. I hate cancer, as I've said many times before.
I LOVE YOU CHARLES. I know you're smiling wherever you are.
From my heart to yours
From my heart to yours,
a symbol of my love
tested by fire
shown true
and faithful.
For they say I should be gone,
That there is no hope,
A quite whisper…
To just go home.
To whom do we turn in such a time,
when this world fails,
when our foundation crumbles,
and there seems to be no way?
We cry out,
seeking refuge in a time of war.
An enemy with death in mind,
But we find refuge Alas!
Expected to be defeated,
We find strength in God,
He who comforts us in our sorrows,
Who heard us when we mourned.
But now our eyes are cleared,
We see the truth,
That in our weakness He is made strong,
That after sorrow comes joy,
And through trial comes patience.
So we press on…towards the prize in the end having done all, to stand.
-From my heart to yours.
By: Charles Garcia
If you would like to read about Charles story and tribulations he faced through cancer, his blog is at http://charles67.blogspot.com/
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[27 Dec 2005|09:12pm] |
US adds 'Baby Face,' 'Rocky Horror' to registry By Brooks Boliek
Tue Dec 27, 2:22 PM ET
WASHINGTON (Hollywood Reporter) - Films that helped usher in a new era of censorship, changed the way Hollywood thought about the audience, provided a first-hand look at one of the nation's great disasters and introduced the world to the word "gnarly" are among the 25 films the librarian of Congress named to the National Film Registry on Tuesday.
Among the films selected by James H. Billington for inclusion in the registry are the 1933 Barbara Stanwyck film "Baby Face," whose racy content inspired the Hays Production Code, "The Rocky Horror Picture Show," which took audience participation to another level, and "Fast Times at Ridgemont High," which gave use "gnarly buds," were all included in the registry.
"The films we choose are not necessarily the 'best' American films ever made or the most famous, but they are films that continue to have cultural, historical or aesthetic significance," Billington said.
Billington made his selections from more than 1,000 titles nominated by the public after lengthy discussions with the library's motion picture division staff and members of the National Film Preservation Board.
The registry, was created by Congress in 1989 to preserve films of cultural, historical of artistic significance. Selection in the National Film Registry singles out films for preservation either in the Library of Congress' own archive or facilities elsewhere.
Big studio releases usually are cared for at their own archives, or other variants of public and private film archives. Entry in the registry often puts a priority on the films named. If they aren't being preserved, inclusion in the registry often moves them up on the priority list.
"The Rocky Horror Picture Show" reinvented the midnight movie and created a cult following as the audience became as much a part of the film as the actors on the screen.
"It changed the whole movie experience as the audience became part of the show for good or bad," said Steve Leggett, National Film Preservation Board staff coordinator
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| Brad-ASSHOLE, Janet-SLUT |
[30 Oct 2005|12:24pm] |
The Rocky Horror Picture Show was so much fun. A LOT more people than I thought participated and this freaking RHPS veteran did all these cool effects and callbacks. We participated a lot too and we sat in the front row so we stood in a line and did the time warp for the audience. We also acted out certain parts. Before the show there was this lame movie called "The Swamp Creature" or something and I was getting really restless, so I popped one of those party poppers. I thought it wouldn't be as loud as it was and it scared the fuck out of most of the audience, especially Erica's friend, when the confetti smacked him in the side of the head. After that, this man went and complained that we were making too much noise and the owner came and sat behind us. What an asshole. So, after, I screamed at him that it wasn't my fault that he couldn't get laid. He looked so mad.
I was thinking that I sort of want to do a private party at Cine El Rey for my graduation party and learn most of the lines and callbacks. Have it be for family too and crap. It would be a lot of fun.
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| woooo getting dressed for the rocky horror picture show is funnn. |
[29 Oct 2005|02:32pm] |
I dyed my hair red, got my fishnets on. :) I'm waiting to do my makeup because there's going to be A LOT of it and I want it to be as fresh as possible. My car is running out of gas and I have to go to the gas station and fill up looking like a ho!!!!!
Lately, I've been going out a lot. A lot of people I haven't heard from in awhile have been calling me and inviting me places. Days seem shorter living this way. Me & Mel went to wal-mart, target, and dollar general yesterday searching for water guns. All we found on our venture was a very sexually explicit "water worm." It goes without saying that the man at the dollar store had lots of fun trying to sell it to us. I threw a frisbee at Mel's head in target and now she has brain damage :/ It's funny when you throw something at someone and it hits the intended target AND another innocent target.
WE ARE PUNKS WE ARE PUNKS WE ARE REAL REAL PUNKS (is that how it goes? we made a few dances to it because it's sort of phony when a person labels themself and screams it out in a song. maybe its just me)
April kicked my ass at scrabble. Mostly because she used the word NYGGA!!!!! Watch yoself!
DONT DREAM IT, BE IT.
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[23 Oct 2005|01:24am] |
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I'd have to say tonight was the best night so far this month. We went to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show at Pan Am, which was awesome. I got up and did the time warp (along with this bitch lady) BECAUSE MY FRIENDS ARE WUSSIES. :) I got a kiss from the main transvestite at the end and have a picture of it (one more thing to cross out on my list of things to do before I die) :) Then, I went out to eat at Quigley's with April and hung out at her house for awhile. I ate too many coffee beans and now my eyes are bloodshot and bleeding. whoa. Now, I'm just plain lying. good night.
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| IT FEELS GOOD |
[18 Oct 2005|11:10pm] |
So...April called me and I'm happy about that. I missed her and want her to know she can always come to my house if she needs someone to talk to. That goes for you other bitches too.
So, Rocky Horror Picture Show at Pan Am this weekend (who's going?)
And Rocky Horror Picture Show at El Rey next weekend (who's going?)
Then Halloween. I need boots. Does anyone have boots? I guess I'll just wear my converse if I can't find any.
I didn't go to school today and my excuse is that I was doing the "bonus" for Mr. Doass :x sorry guys, don't think any lower of me :( bahaha.
I bought a black flag cd
"IT FEELS GOOD
TO SAY WHAT I WANT
IT FEELS GOOD
TO KNOCK THINGS DOWN
IT FEELS GOOD
TO SEE THE DISGUST IN THEIR EYES
IT FEELS GOOD"
and now for the work cited because I'm retarded and it makes me feel better.
http://www.homepagez.com/louie2x/lyrics/damaged.html#RA01
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| wtf |
[18 Oct 2005|11:03pm] |
I found this written in my agenda from last year. Random.
I like to push things to their limits and then discard them, pretending as if they never existed.
Pretending or sincerely forgetting? I like to push limits and then give up altogether. I like to turn my air conditioner in my car up to full blast, ignoring the honking and sirens. I like to stick my fingers where they don't belong. I like to borrow someone elses white out and dump it all out in front of them. I like to borrow pencils and see how much of a notebook I can shade a shimmering gray before the pencil withers to the point of where I can no longer grip it with my hand. I then like to return these relics to their owners. Better late than never. Better short than nothing. Maybe. I like to tell people that they suck when they don't. I like to tell people that they're awesome when they're not. I like to overexaggerate my voice to the point of where I can't even recognize it as my own. I like to blare my music and exercise demons. I like to not exercise. I like to not like things I don't like. I like not knowing how asparagus tastes.
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[18 Oct 2005|11:02pm] |
1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3)Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behaviour. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and
can sign a marriage contract.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears's 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
Repost this in your journal if you are for gay marriage.
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[10 Oct 2005|05:12pm] |
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I just saw Charles on tv. :) looks like he got his basement room thing that he wanted from the make-a-wish foundation. I'm so happy for him. He looked really happy :)
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